brendan nixon is fucking dead (that's what the answering machine said). well, i'm sorry it had to go on for this long. for real, this is the final new material you should expect from sensory deprivation, since i want to end before i have to nuke the fridge. this doesn't mean that i'll stop making music, in fact i have at least 4 projects to work on after this, some of which have songs finished. as for this album, i was really inspired by the boring bathtimes double album, and had always intended to do one for sd, since i think i could be diverse enough to occupy the space evenly. eventually, i started obsessively listening to all my favorite self-indulgent, sprawling double albums (deathconsciousness, leaves turn inside you, the glow pt 2, disintegration, et fucking cetera) and decided to finally try my hand at imitating my all time favorite album (leaves). sd has always borrowed perhaps a little too much from unwound, but i can't really express what they've meant to me.
anyway, i got the first disc done in maybe 2 weeks or so, which was absolutely insane. that one holds far more of the classic sd sound, with distorted skramz, nervous-curtis vocal melodies, sound collages, and overly-long songs without flow. but, i got way into jazz before this recording, so i tried to do more syncopation and just more technical drumming in general. the result is pretty much the pinnacle of what i wanted sd to be when i first envisioned it; in fact i'd argue that dayglo is the definitive sd song. miss emma was also the first song to be finished on this side, which is kinda different than past sd because it's less aggressive and more of a dreamy kind of frustration; not too far off from my last album in terms of enjoyment. i won't spoil the rest of the first disc, but just know it's a little more orthodox for sd, with some surprises.
now the 2nd disc is where i think i really tried to branch out and drop some of the blatant intensity. while it starts with one of the angriest songs on the album, it's pretty much the last you should expect. cloudsong is the only other song on this disc with skramz, but even then, it's more of my take on bauhaus than the traditional sd sound. that one is one of my favorites, mainly because my vox were so much fun to record, and the brief piano part. as for the other songs, freedom is slavery might as well be my first and only pop song, since it has a traditional structure, and the most massive chorus I've ever achieved, although it ends in typical sd fashion. cracked is another personal favorite, since the dynamics in the 2nd half are probably the biggest I've ever done. cognitive consonance was my attempt at a waltz, which technically was unsuccessful, but hey, it sucks being unable to count. the glockenspiel was broken, and i had to play it with a screwdriver since i lost my mallets. willing to die and the title track, those kind of hurt to listen to. the last sd, it makes me a little sad and reflective, but i didn't achieve anything so whatever. just know, that i tried to end on a high note, and that willing to die is really the final track. the title track is just an interlude. then that's it. we're done.
this is way more than i typically write for an album, but this is the last you'll ever hear of sensory deprivation, so i think it's worth it. even though i know it all meant nothing, and that it always will, i just want to end with something i can be proud of. i pity those who only cling to the past (i lived in the past, missing the future), so sensory deprivation will never reform. my other bands such as hyosis may play these songs live, since i don't think they'll really become irrelevant, but don't ever expect a formal reunion. i've met some great people over the internet through this, unfortunately never played any shows, pissed off some people, always had 200 free downloads, and always did it the way i felt it should go. i think it's a legacy i can be proud of, and maybe i'll get some of that punk cred now that it's over "too soon". thanks again to anyone who helped with anything, this is the end. sensory deprivation are/is fucking dead, long live analgesin and hyosis.
thanks to: ollie for contributing to this and enjoying my work, jacob for helping an amount almost too immense to express, mr. long for explaining what punk is and for giving me his pinkerton poster, the guys from elemantra for inspiration and goodwill, my senior friends from last year for helping me find me, a-web for pushing me beyond just gazi-worship into whatever i'm at now, catarina for the amazing cover art and enthusiasm, my parents for providing this equipment to make what i make (among other things), matt and ben for being in a band with me and intimately pleasuring me, dan barrett and tim macuga for infinite inspiration, my band teacher for encouraging me to drum better, jorge rodrigo allen for reminding me why i do this, chad from blue mist for lyrical inspiration, codeine for coping, anyone who hurt me in any way for giving me inspiration to write mopey songs, anyone who helped me in any way for making me an optimist for a few minutes, everyone who listened to anything sensory deprivation, and especially liked it and told others (you know who art thou)
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dedicated to edwin harry zakian, father of one of the most important people i've met in my short life thus far
what others said:
"The living embodiment of a lucid dream"- Ollie Aldridge
"Talk about a fuckin swan song"- Jorge Roland Allen
"Like Pink Floyd jamming with NIN while Robert Smith joined in and Eno served drinks"- my dad
released March 12, 2016
brendan nixon- guitar, vox
mike hawk- bass
rich head- drums
perk- piano on terminus of effort
ollie aldridge- guitars on title track
jacob scheppler- poetry on charon, vox on title track
erik-sheader smith- viola on cracked, title track
reigh erkinspay- various photographs
catarina miranda (myxo)- cover art (www.facebook.com/Myxo
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